Dearest Cate,
Thank you for such a gorgeous joining last Sunday. I’m inspired to share my experience with you. It was so transformative I’m telling everyone! Haha! I was going to share on your FaceBook group, but can’t seem to shorten it enough!
This is copied from my journal:
During last night’s satsang, Cate read some of the passages from the “Lifting of the Veil” section. She has been emphasizing for weeks how we cannot overcome the fear of God without forgiving our brother. This is a connection that I needed to have emphasized and am so grateful that Cate has done so. While she was reading the passages, I had my eyes closed and held three three brothers in my mind that I am seeing through grievances. It was so dark I could barely make them out. I knew who they were, but couldn’t really see them well because of the darkness. As she read “But first, lift up your eyes and look on your brother in innocence…” (T-19, IV, D, i, I could feel that I wanted to, but was still holding onto this idea that they are guilty “for treating me wrongly and taking my peace away”. She continued reading and when she read from paragraph 12, “Yet in his hands is your salvation. You see his madness, which you hate because you share it.” I felt my grip loosening. If my salvation is in these brother’s hands, I cannot accept it if I don’t see it. If I am blocking love by these grievances that I want to hold against them, I will not know love.
Cate kept reading and in paragraph 13, she read, “Would you hold his sins against him, or accept his gift to you?” And just then, one of the brothers I was looking on in darkness opened up her hands in front of her face to reveal something beautiful and white that was glowing so fully I could not recognize its form. A lily? A dove? I found myself trying to define this gift my brother was offering to me, but quickly let go. This gift started to glow so brightly that it was shining on her face to reveal the most beautiful, loving smile. She was no longer in darkness. A sense of peace washed over me. Then the same exact thing happened with one of the other brothers I was holding in my mind…and then the last one too. I looked upon them with their glowing gifts and glowing smiling faces and it was beautiful, but I still felt a bit of tension. Then I remembered to open my hands. And there was the beautiful, white glowing gift to give to them. We joined and shared in this beautiful gift of happiness and light.
As I sat there in amazement at these wonderful images and my deep sense of peace, many other brothers started appearing in my mind, opening their hands and revealing the same gift with glowing smiling faces. Some of them I recognized…some were in the satsang with me, some were friends, family…and others I did not recognize at all but came bearing this same wonderful gift. My heart was filled with gratitude & my mind was filled with light. I just wanted to give to everyone. I started flying over this large group of people dropping little spheres of glow to everyone & then was lifted up even higher and flew over the world doing the same thing. I felt that I was love and I was giving it to everyone and everything. It was such a profound and lovely experience.
After this part of the satsang, Cate did the Christ blessing one on one with some of the participants. I joined her in blessing them and also blessed her each time. I found that I knew who was calling for a blessing and knew who Cate would call upon next. Like I was joined in the Mind with her. With this, and all experiences with Holy Spirit, it strengthens my trust and increases my willingness. I am so grateful.
Thank you for pointing me inward, Cate! The certainty of your voice carries me through the fear with a feeling of safety.
Love you!