I wish to share my experience in Cate’s Zoom group on healing. I have a friend who I love very much but I have experienced at times that my ego would hate her. I have gone to Jesus crying my eyes out, asking for help and a healing of my mind but I always felt hurt or disappointed in her and I couldn’t seem to get past those feelings.
Cate asked us to imagine we are washing the feet of someone we hate the most. My dear friend came to mind. I started to wash her feet and I saw Jesus standing next to me with his hand on my shoulder. He was looking at me with much love and tenderness approving of what I was doing. Then Jesus looked at my friend with so much love and tenderness. I continued to wash her feet and I also massaged her feet.
Then the scene switched. I was feeding her a very sweet, summer fruit called a papaya. Jesus was not visible but I remained loving towards her. My friend tried a few bites but since she never ate a papaya before she only took about three bites. I remained loving and accepting, even though my friend did not want more of the papaya.
Then the scene quickly switched. It didn’t feel like I was trying to make this happen. It seemed to just happen. It felt so real. I was totally lost and immersed in the scene. My friend became a small child, maybe 2 or 3 years old. She was in my lap and I was rocking her in a rocking chair. I cuddled her gently and sweetly in my arms and while rocking her I said over and over “My precious child. My precious child”. My heart opened up and I felt tremendous love for her. The love was amazing. It was pure with no other feeling.
The next thing I remember the meditation was over and I was crying my eyes out having only love for her. I felt so grateful because the barrier or wall I built up inside myself came tumbling down. There was only love and gratitude.
Thank you Jesus for giving me this experience. It taught me a great lesson. No one can truly harm us but ourselves with our thoughts. No matter what hurt you may feel, disappointment, rejection, etc etc just meet it with love. Stay loving no matter what, and your life and experiences will eventually change for the better. I am so grateful for this understanding.